My overdosed delusion

It started long before me...
I never saw it comin'...
The distance, the promise...
A state of isolation...
And in my darkest nightmare...
Things that I can't remember...
The answer, is drowning, this pain will last forever.

The promise...
The breaking...
Rejection...
Deception...
Reflection...
Conception...
The missing...
The torture...
The madness...
The sadness...
Can this be?
Or is it?

The shadow cast before me...
A walk inside your circle...
Protect me...
Correct me...
You got your orders, soldier...
Inside my head is humming...
Sometimes I hear them coming...
The power...
Believing...
The hate I hate believing...

Where is this?
It can't be...
Who are you?
I know you...
You wouldn't...
Or would you?
Don't fight me!
Ignite me!
My trigger...
Your finger...
Your darkness...
I know it...
Come forward!
I've seen it!
I mean it!

Your power, is over!
I've come to change the order!
My training, is perfect!
I'm back, again!
Your promise, is broken!
I drank your sacred water.
My mission, is holy!

I'm back.